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16 April 2017

Grief is a Boulder (Sunday Psalms Series)

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Sunday Psalms: Fictional Narratives & Poetry Inspired by the Psalms, Proverbs, & Other Biblical Works

Grief is a boulder
Soul, mind crush

Who can tell me not to hurt
Every cell burns deep

Morning breaks
I’d rather sleep
Can any good remain?
Only lament to sing

Hope…
With Him, I dared dream
Joy invisible
Radiant stream

And then the darkness…
Darkness
Darkness

Gloom shrouds Earth
Heart thumps its dirge
Is there no balm in Gilead?
Gaping wound, bloody surge

They placed a boulder
Over Love’s cold tomb
Most of me…
Buried with Him too

To further scrape my misery
A crazy story spread
Like pollen, thick and wild
They claimed He woke from death

I mocked, I jeered
What fool believes
A corpse can walk and breathe

Thought I saw Him for myself
Rubbed my eyes in fright
A ghost, perhaps, some mystic trick
To ease my woeful nights

But then…

Then I touched Him,
Felt His skin
Saw where evil failed to win
Death is thwarted
Doom is vanquished
Grief is drowned in faith

Love is a boulder, strong and sure
Conquering each man’s pain
Rolls with clear, mighty intention
Dulling chronic ache

Though life scars linger, Love has a way
Of softening brittle soil
Always hopes, never fails,
Seals eternal fate

But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came. The other disciples therefore said unto him, We have seen the Lord. But he said unto them, Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.

And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with them. Jesus cometh, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, Peace be unto you. Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and see my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and put it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing. Thomas answered and said unto him, My Lord and my God. Jesus saith unto him, Because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed. John 20:24-29 (ASV)

Question to Ponder: When do you doubt? Believe?

Song Recommendation: Doubting Thomas by Nickel Creek

-Read Previous Sunday Psalms from Season Two: Episode 1Episode 2, Episode 3Episode 4Episode 5,Episode 6, Episode 7, Episode 8Episode 9, Episode 10Episode 11, Episode 12Episode 13, Episode 14, Episode 15, Episode 16,  Episode 17Episode 18, Episode 19, Episode 20, Episode 21, Episode 22, Episode 23, Episode 24Episode 25, Episode 26, Episode 27, Episode 28

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Written by Heidi Beth Sadler, Inspired by John 20. Copyright © 2017 Benjamin & Heidi Sadler, All Rights Reserved.

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